Goodbye Baby

Goodbye Baby

I remember a time before you were born. A time when I didn’t have you in my life. I remember putting my hand against my bump and feeling you there….your perfectly shaped heel inside of me. I remember holding you once you were born and feeling that same shape in my palm.

You see….I made you, as every mother does. I once went away when you were small and took your blanket with me….so I could lie and smell your smell and feel you close.

I have watched you grow, I’ve shared your tears, I’ve picked you up when you are down, I’ve sat and listened, I’ve cheered you on, clapped when you scored, cried when you started school, I’ve felt your pain and your joys though you might not always have know. I’ve watched you from a distance and seen you grow. I’ve though you things I can about life…I know you have lots to learn and that’s all part of your joy but today my heart is breaking like its never been broken before. I will miss your smile, your words, your footsteps on the landing floor, I will miss the son I love so much and the wonderful man that he has become, I will miss my friend, my soul mate, our chats and even our arguments but I know I have to let you go.

Nothing could have prepared me for you walking out the door and knowing it would be a year before I could touch you or see you but I know that this is your time. A time for you to spread your wings and fly. Go forward and be brave, have fun and enjoy yourself, discover who you are and where you want to go. I have not always been perfect but do all of this and more and remember that I am always here for you and my love knows no bounds. You are my son and I love you more than you can ever know.

展开你的翅膀飞翔 or spread your wings and fly xxxxxxxxxxxxxx

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6 Comments

  1. What a beautiful post! I really needed that, my eldest boy (of 3) is about to turn six and I’m reminded that he won’t be my little boy forever. Thank you. Loving the blog from North Kerry… Anne

  2. Karen you made me cry, love to you all, xxxxxx love Dawn xxxxxx

  3. Ah gawd, I’m near bawling here. Such beautiful words Karen. x

  4. Ah Karen … so lovely. I hope he has a wonderful experience.
    I cried a river yesterday dropping them back to school and they are only in national school 1 km from the house. Hopeless … x

    • It seems like yesterday that I dropped him at the school gate for the first time. He’s loving his experience so far although the novelty of Chinese food is wearing off. Thanks Móna x

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